Exciting news!

So... we've been holding onto a little secret! We're expecting a baby (due New Year's Eve!) and it's a baby girl!

We're so excited and it's been killing me not to blog about it. When I was pregnant with Javi I didn't blog often (though I revealed the news much earlier along) but it was more because it was all so new and I didn't want anything to go wrong. Of course, that's always a worry -- but this time was more because I've been busy, the doctors are watching the baby's heart for some concerns AND my work didn't know yet. Since my social media and blog are public I thought it would be weird to post here. 

I'll be 20 weeks on Saturday and I'm definitely starting to show so it was time to share the news on social media and here and I'm so looking forward to the rest of the pregnancy and being a mom to a little girl!

I've been feeling pretty good. I found out really early (on April 22) and so I feel like I really experienced all of the first trimester. Thankfully, just like with Javi, I didn't experience typical morning sickness symptoms however, I felt pretty terrible during the day, couldn't eat and just wanted to sleep away my constant headaches. Around 14 weeks, that stopped and I've been feeling good (other than being so tired). The second pregnancy is definitely different since you can't just nap whenever you feel like it with a toddler running around and screaming! :)

Javi's birthday is coming up which means he'll be about 28 months by the time baby arrives. As of now, he doesn't know what's about to happen to his little world but we've been talking about it and he likes to point to my belly (and his) and point out the "bebe". It was only on Tuesday, we found out it's a girl so now I'm going into major planning mode. :)

A brighter day will come.

I have to admit the past couple days I've just been overwhelming consumed with the news about the Colorado movie theater shooting. For me, it's one of those events that my mind simply cannot filter out like it does for the majority of violent attacks that happen in the world, every day.

I feel so badly for the people in the theater that night, the families and friends of the people in the theater that night, the emergency responders who had no idea what they were running into that night, the doctors, nurses, paramedics and social workers who had to make those calls that no one ever expects to receive that night, and the community who since that night has had to deal with loss, and cameras, and reporters and change.

I think it's so hard to grasp because going to a midnight showing of a Batman movie would be something Sean and I would do. And we wouldn't think twice about it. Because we shouldn't have to.

I think it's so hard to grasp because the people that were injured or who were killed were [for the most part] right around our age. 

I think it's so hard to grasp because there's nothing in my mind that can rationalize hurting people like that. It's senseless. It's cowardly. It's not fair.

It's not fair to make people second guess their completely rational plans of going to the movies. 

Or for that matter the mall... or school... or work.

Or all the other normal places these tragedies occur. 

We shouldn't have to be afraid. 

But it's so hard not to be.

Unfortunately, we only have two choices. 

Be afraid and stop living our lives.

Or live our lives... to the fullest with love, respect and compassion. 

Love for those who love us back.

Respect for those who deserve it.

And compassion for those for need it.

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